Worth a Wait

Waiting for your eyes

to fall upon me

to look into my eyes and

interpret my mind

you will get to

know my grief

waiting to hear the words from your mouth

that would soothe my soul

that would turn me into a new man

that would clean up my mind from the broodings of

the past

waiting for your hands

to touch me

to take away my rues

and to melt me down into tears

A touch that would tidy up

my sinful heart

that would turn me into a saint

Listen my girl

you are worth the wait

hope it would change my fate!

We were asked to give feedback on our college life.The first word that came to my mind was "yuck"!

you would wonder why I'm so dejected to answer like that. Our college life was disgusting. Believe me! There are people whom we call as "friends" - whom we bank on all the time -whom we trust more than anyone. But we dont realise that they are those who get their things done by us - who come to us only when they need anything. Deceitful and cunning people!

This doesn't mean that i don't have any friends.I too have a few good friends.There are few creatures who pretend to be friends with everyone in a group say for instance a class.Their intention is to "socialize" and nothing else. They feign to be good to all and that seems so artificial. Pure ostentation! I despise this attitude very much..

What's the reason behind my moan? I should be specific at this point.It's someone who was my best pal during college days and now we're not even in touch. There were ample changes in "X" whose acts were unreal all of a sudden. X started behaving oddly, trying to socialize with almost everyone in the class.It seemed extremely weird for me.

The saddest thing i have ever done is that i wrote a poem for this X in the same old blog page.Ofcourse it's a matter of regret now!I hate this creature now. I have even decided not to

consider this X as a human being anymore..Now, you would understand why i used the word "creature" for reference while starting off.

Solitude

hey tree?

how can you

  stand on your own

   sans anyone!

    how lucky are you!

     to be alone 

    isolated from so called

      "the others"

   you might have had

   quite a few birds as

    your pals but do they still

         remain in your so called "mateship"?

 

    when you were rich

         with green leaves and fruits

             they all were banking upon you.

            But now, do you have anyone

        to care for you now?

      I guess NO!

          have you ever thought

           that they all would fly away

               leaving you alone one day?

            But,that's what happens!

        Never trust anyone

         people feign as friends

          they will care and they 

            won't be there when you 

          need them.

               never get attached to

                anyone.It wont last for certain

         live on your own

        Be independent

           and confident

            Being alone is 

            really a gift to

                do things on our own

                we can spend ample time 

                on things that we are 

                 interested in without 

                  the tamper of others.

                Introspection can be

                 made giving time to think

                  about our self offering

                  strength and determination

                      and 

                a better personality

                                                                         before cremation!                                                         

                                                            

Doleful Moments

well why do we listen to songs those evoke pain in our heart while we are depressed?

It's quite natural. It's like recalling the past and trowing what went wrong.

Break ups are quite common nowadays. They dont pertain only for  lovers.even, close friends can break apart.But, both hold the same kind of aftermaths.Human beings are blessed with a special power of getting over such heart breaking things with time. But, I still wonder whether i can ameliorate after sometime.

It keeps haunting me.Im feeling nostalgic and sad,grieving about the past.Im hurt.I don't think i can ever get whole bunch of care and affection from anyone anymore.It's like something has been taken from deep inside of me leaving me alone and desolate.I should not have got closer to a friend that i started expecting things which led me to face a sequel of dashing hopes.I couldn't stop thinking about the past. Atleast cherishing those wonderful memories can help me get better.I can't forget anything and those memories keep obsessing, making me sink in despair.

I used to download helluva sad songs hoping that they would help me sometime.And now it's the time to listen to such tracks.I normally dont focus on the lyrics much while listening to songs.Instead, used to concentrate deeply on the beats and the background.But, now im choosing songs with good lyrics to listen.And now it's the phase of rueful songs which have drawn my interest.Im listening to some selected songs again and again more than ten times a day.

very meaningful lyrics in a song makes me listen to it again and again!

"Flames to dust

  why do all good things 

 come to an end?"

I still wonder why do all  good things  end? I felt glad when i got something precious and now it has ended taking back my smile and glee. The most painful thing to do is to bid adieu to someone very close, someone you care for, someone like your sibling.Why did it happen to me?I didnt have strength in my  soul to say goodbye. The most distressing and hardest thing is to say goodbye to loved ones.Why i ve been put in sucha situation? well, its very tough for me not to think about the old memories which made me happy.I'm trying hard to forget everything, but i couldn't.Trying to keep myself occupied with something im interested in. Despite that, i couldn't stop thinking of the past.Even, tears are taking revenge on me.

This shouldn't happen to anyone.I started listening to "goodbye" songs and they make me feel better.hope, i ll get over it soon.

DOLOR

I was on seventh heaven

when you made an entry

into my life

It all started with a song

thanks to Madge 

who played a part in

bringing us near

I still cherish those

wonderful moments

We shared together

can't forget anything

I was really glad

after a very long time

It was you who brought 

smile on my face

but it all lasted for

quite a few days

 I wondered how you

disproved my jinx

I thought how lucky i am

to get you

but, everything vanished

in a jiffy

It always happens to me

whenever i get close

to someone

it never lasts long

Im always left behind

alone and abandoned

is this a boon for me 

given by the almighty?

It's the most painful thing

one can ever talk about

It's the most pathetic thing 

one can ever do

It's the most distressing thing

one can ever experience

How easy it was

for you to say 

that disheartening word

"goodbye"

It looks simple but has

a very complex meaning 

in it

My words seemed artificial

for you and 

you always suspected me

and acted quite rude

you hurt me ultimately

despite these

my love for you

has not dwindled even

a bit.

I never thought

you can be like this!

I never thought 

you will leave me alone

pushing me into the

world of grief, distress and despair

Thanks for being with me

sticking by me , guiding me

through the right path

i will never forget you

you will accomplish 

whatever you tend to

my prayers and good wishes

will always remain with you

forever and ever

None can ever get close to me

None can replace you

in my heart

None can take me back

from the domain of depression

All i want to say is

I miss you terribly

take care and be safe

stay happy with a

smile on your face!

Long distance relationship - unimaginable!

I never meant to hurt you

just spoke my heart open

was that wrong or

was that right?

was that too worse to hurt you?

am i cynic or is it you?

is being open too much for you?

i never knew!

did i spite you?

im sorry for being blunt

and forthright.

but when u think deep

you will find it right

whatever i said and

whatever i did

when i was down

you were there with me

but does it mean that

you are my world?

you are my dearest friend

and always will be

but nothing more

and no second thought

all that matters is

"distance"

and indeed we never met!

i dont believe in 

long distance relationship

and thats the reason

for me keeping off from you

you will have a great life

if you find someone there

im sure you will get a 

guy better than me in all ways

may your life flourish

and your mind cherish

let all your dreams come true 

with my prayers and hugs!

Despair

i go hapless

  when im wingless

that makes me ruthless

 and eventually lifeless

set-up!

doesnt make any sense

in my case

upset

ooh!its the trace

that makes me chase

things coiled in a foil

brings tension and turmoil

hope shattered and spoilt

makes my blood boil

when i rise

up in the dawn

i surmise

my stress has gone

but it vanishes

in a jiffy

leaving my eyes

puffy

waking up to face

tonnes of issues at a pace

lacking in grace

alas! none to embrace

                       

still finding my path

in excessive wrath

sunken in despair

drunken to retire

lost in zephyr

my heart seeks repair

healing power

will i get it ever?

Distress :-(

I cry

devoid of a reason

I sigh

all over the season

things change

over a period

minds same

remaining fagged

My woes

pricking in a fashion

din change

resting in a cushion

Love hurts

lacking in passion

life sucks

living in suspicion!

you made 

me to go bonker

i might

switch to a nagger

This sounds

saddest to the core and

I miss

people next my door and,

I feel

lonesome and boring

can't sleep

even with snoring!

Im alone

always on this earth 

None cares

for me in this world!

Not gonna

give a damn for anything!

not gonna 

mind a gram about anything!

Hurray its 2009!!

                                          Hey babe...

                                                  

                                                 shake your body 

                                                 Tap your feet

                                                  rock n roll

                                                 A year has born!

                                        

                                                 Its a year starting afresh

                                                 forget all your woes at a stretch

                                                 forgive all the people of wretch

                                                 and stop acting like a bitch!

                                                Never hurt Never hurt

                                                Never hurt a guy anymore

                                                wont stand he wont stand

                                                He wont stand to the core!

                                               We all look for "transformation"

                                               but u look for "Acquisition"

                                               Be realistic and materialistic

                                               and not voyueristic and dramatic!

                                               Let me peer

                                               whether you change this year

                                               dont be a liar

                                               will love you dear

                                              I still believe that

                                              you will repent 

                                              for all what you did

                                              and come to me kid!

                                              hoping for the best

                                              praying for the rest

                                              God keep you safe

                                             till we go on a date!

                                                      ;-)