Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Solitude



hey tree?
how can you
  stand on your own
   sans anyone!

    how lucky are you!
     to be alone 
    isolated from so called
      "the others"

   you might have had
   quite a few birds as
    your pals but do they still
         remain in your so called "mateship"?

 
    when you were rich
         with green leaves and fruits
             they all were banking upon you.
            But now, do you have anyone
        to care for you now?
      I guess NO!

          have you ever thought
           that they all would fly away
               leaving you alone one day?
            But,that's what happens!

        Never trust anyone
         people feign as friends
          they will care and they 
            won't be there when you 
          need them.
               never get attached to
                anyone.It wont last for certain
         live on your own
        Be independent
           and confident

            Being alone is 
            really a gift to
                do things on our own
                we can spend ample time 
                on things that we are 
                 interested in without 
                  the tamper of others.

                Introspection can be
                 made giving time to think
                  about our self offering
                  strength and determination
                      and 
                a better personality
                                                                         before cremation!                                                         

                                                            

Monday, March 2, 2009

Doleful Moments



well why do we listen to songs those evoke pain in our heart while we are depressed?
It's quite natural. It's like recalling the past and trowing what went wrong.
Break ups are quite common nowadays. They dont pertain only for  lovers.even, close friends can break apart.But, both hold the same kind of aftermaths.Human beings are blessed with a special power of getting over such heart breaking things with time. But, I still wonder whether i can ameliorate after sometime.

It keeps haunting me.Im feeling nostalgic and sad,grieving about the past.Im hurt.I don't think i can ever get whole bunch of care and affection from anyone anymore.It's like something has been taken from deep inside of me leaving me alone and desolate.I should not have got closer to a friend that i started expecting things which led me to face a sequel of dashing hopes.I couldn't stop thinking about the past. Atleast cherishing those wonderful memories can help me get better.I can't forget anything and those memories keep obsessing, making me sink in despair.

I used to download helluva sad songs hoping that they would help me sometime.And now it's the time to listen to such tracks.I normally dont focus on the lyrics much while listening to songs.Instead, used to concentrate deeply on the beats and the background.But, now im choosing songs with good lyrics to listen.And now it's the phase of rueful songs which have drawn my interest.Im listening to some selected songs again and again more than ten times a day.

very meaningful lyrics in a song makes me listen to it again and again!
"Flames to dust
  why do all good things 
 come to an end?"

I still wonder why do all  good things  end? I felt glad when i got something precious and now it has ended taking back my smile and glee. The most painful thing to do is to bid adieu to someone very close, someone you care for, someone like your sibling.Why did it happen to me?I didnt have strength in my  soul to say goodbye. The most distressing and hardest thing is to say goodbye to loved ones.Why i ve been put in sucha situation? well, its very tough for me not to think about the old memories which made me happy.I'm trying hard to forget everything, but i couldn't.Trying to keep myself occupied with something im interested in. Despite that, i couldn't stop thinking of the past.Even, tears are taking revenge on me.

This shouldn't happen to anyone.I started listening to "goodbye" songs and they make me feel better.hope, i ll get over it soon.




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Sunday, March 1, 2009

DOLOR

I was on seventh heaven
when you made an entry
into my life
It all started with a song
thanks to Madge 
who played a part in
bringing us near


I still cherish those
wonderful moments
We shared together
can't forget anything

I was really glad
after a very long time
It was you who brought 
smile on my face
but it all lasted for
quite a few days

 I wondered how you
disproved my jinx
I thought how lucky i am
to get you
but, everything vanished
in a jiffy

It always happens to me
whenever i get close
to someone
it never lasts long
Im always left behind
alone and abandoned
is this a boon for me 
given by the almighty?

It's the most painful thing
one can ever talk about
It's the most pathetic thing 
one can ever do
It's the most distressing thing
one can ever experience

How easy it was
for you to say 
that disheartening word
"goodbye"
It looks simple but has
a very complex meaning 
in it

My words seemed artificial
for you and 
you always suspected me
and acted quite rude
you hurt me ultimately
despite these
my love for you
has not dwindled even
a bit.

I never thought
you can be like this!
I never thought 
you will leave me alone
pushing me into the
world of grief, distress and despair

Thanks for being with me
sticking by me , guiding me
through the right path
i will never forget you

you will accomplish 
whatever you tend to
my prayers and good wishes
will always remain with you
forever and ever

None can ever get close to me
None can replace you
in my heart
None can take me back
from the domain of depression

All i want to say is
I miss you terribly
take care and be safe
stay happy with a
smile on your face!