A Paradigm of depression!

i could have been dumb
and kept mum!
but was hasty and swollen
and became a bum!

whats the use in remorsing
whats the need of compuncting
and why am i contriting !
well, god will be heeding!

i was sucha crap to do that
i went buggy and balmy
and did a thing
which was poopy and crappy
and regretting like a filthy!

jabbed myself into the world of distress!
and feeling for it after ingress
that's quite sad
and Im feeling so bad

i never listened to you at times
and have disappointed you ample times
but, u are suchan angel
to forgive me those times!

bothering your words
Im having second thoughts
and apologised sincerely
and will never do that even rarely!

will stay aplomb
here after
and will try to be diplomatic
here after!

And i ll be unique
in my own ways
will resume being
in the forth coming days!

"self respect" is quite important
in a "profession"
or even in personal life
and i understood that very late
and ll try to change my fate!

WELL INDITED WORK!

This is a poem written for me by my best friend!
:))


How can one smile such sweet smiles,
When one is so saddened by sorrows for miles,
How can I smile the same smiles,
When life brings me nothing but tears,

I wondered for so long,
What reason you had to smile that long,
To keep smiling though troubles come,
And still remain sweet and silently overcome,

It's such a mystery to me,
Your smiles from heaven with glee,
I adore and yet envy thee,
But I'd rather you smile those at me,

I feel happy when I see you smile,
Even if I'm sad and lonely,
Your smiles bring me somewhere,
I don't even know where,

But it was you,
You gave me the reason to smile,
To smile with no reason,
To smile for a smile,

I guess life is just like that,
We need not a reason to smile,
For a smile is the reason itself,
To rejoice and open-heartedly give thanks,

I learned to smile because of you,
Because your smiles bring me joy when blue,
It proves how well and powerful,
A simple sweet smile can become so beautiful,

Smile for the sake of a smile,
Smile for the sake of happiness,
Smile for the sake of life,
Smile because of hope left in life,

Smile my friends,
Smile for me my Love,
Smile those same sweet smiles,
Smile so the world can be a peaceful dove... ;-)

PAYING TRIBUTE TO MS.BALI

well to start with, MS.BALI , the evergreen legend of bollywood till date, she is the most alluring and beautiful actress ever. she is the killer to so many people like me even today! she made her debut in "vazhkai" by AVM productions at the age of 15 in 1950. she got a break in hindi movies with "ladki" and "nagin" in 1954.
some of her renowned works include

madhumati
ganga jamuna
leader
naya daur
The first two of those four roles earned her filmfare best actress award.
also,
sangam
amra pali,(the buddhist courtesan)
jewel thief
new delhi
were some of her great memorable films!
ms.Bali was married to DR.chamanlal bali who was the family physician for actor raj kapoor..and she was a former MP too. :)
and one crucial thing to mention over here s tat she is a great great classical dancer.she is exceptionally skilled in classical dancing. A dextrous dancer!.and she s the most favourite dancer of madhuri dixit!..:)
she s still performing for some shows in music academy during new year's eve every year.m craving to see her dance atleast once in my life time.
long live ms.bali. already she is 72!
he he...:))

renold on seventh heaven!

It was a fun filled day!

in a special way :)

jollied along in untrodden ways
and was great among my past birthdays!

quite different
from all other days!
guess its cool
in its own way!

hurray aww alas !!
my outcry goes like this
amorous great quixotic
my heart pounds like this!

 hope, it goes on
well like this
:)
and within my next b'day
let me find my fille
caring and loving with
a benevolent heart like a bliss!

:))

MISSING SOME ONE!

grief grief grief
endless woe
all happened when
you left me alone!
:((


i kept planning things
i made certain things
like how our future would be
and how my partner could be!


but, everything passed away
like a dream !
and nothing happened as
i thought could be
:(

when we had a huge fight
i thought it would end like
the usual one and i never thought
it would land us like this

you never accepted
my apology!
and ditched me
mercilessly


i for gave you as days passed by
but, my memories still flood back
to the days when we stayed together
enjoying ourselves in the rain
and crying eyes in pain!

miss you miss you
still missing you
will miss you
always

:(

undefinable pain in my heart
caused by you
that would never heal for ever
and you ll always remain
in my memories for ever!

A thing to remember!

After a long time
my fren called me!
we were so close before
but lost touch abruptly
and it was so nice
to hear from him again!

im on cloud nine:)
im on seventh heaven!
its a bliss
oops i do miss
:(

close to my heart
ma friend is!
close to my soul
ma friend is!

am happy as ever and
sweet as never!
m full of high spirits
m full of high spirits!

gonna meet ma fren one day
its gonna b fun day
ma heart and mind are full of joy
and wish tat it lasts for ever and ever!

HARD CORE EFFUSIVE FILM!

well, i thought of sharing my views abt a film that i watched very recently.. rather, i can describe this post as "review" of the movie... the movie s"baabul" which was released in the year 2006.. it was one of d movies which affected me emotionally. the film s entirely about "widow remarriage"..it was picturised in a very nice way..and i have to mention here tat m a die hard fan of "ms.mukherjee".. her role was jus fantastic..she has played her part well.. pitiful thing s the inauspicious death of salman khan( rani's hubby)..it was so sad.. john abraham s part was very decent. his role was quite gud.. and above all, amitabh's dialogues were just touching..making our hearts melt! hema malini, a very affectionate mom..her looks were like, she was still young...as she appeared in "chachha bathija" and other films of that 70's.. sarika(kamal's wife) was given a guest role.. eventually, the film was gr8..its a gud feast for persons excessively affected by emotions! good film!

BACK TO MA SCHOOL DAYS!!!!

i gave a priceless thing to ma fren ..as he was in need of that for the test..it was really a treasure(4 me)...and i got that thing from ma old gal fren..i mean ma old crush..it was durin 2003-2004..

चलते मेरे ये गीत याद रखना
कभी अलविदा ना कहना
रोते हँसते बस यूं ही तुम गुनगुनाते रहना
कभी अलविदा न कहना
प्यार करते करते हम तुम खो जायेंगे
इन ही बहारों के आँचल में थक के सो जायेंगे
सपनों को फिर भी तुम यूं ही सजाते रहना
कभी अलविदा ना कहना...

and it was the same time wen chalte chalte film got released!! i like this song a lottt..and wenever, i think of her, this song flows out from ma mouth..i don know d reason and all...
i really enjoyed ma 11th and 12 th std. wid her..she s pretty,eye catching ..more over, she s an eye candy..many of our skool boys were seein her..she knew that..but, she din take them seriously..and, to b frank, i was one among dem..ha ha..and, as i expected, v bcame close..nein nein closer frens..she used 2 gimme lift in her scooty!!honestly, i din know how 2 drive/ride even a gearless bike/scooter.or .watever u call...so, i will b sittin behind her in her scooty...i never felt shy durin that time, b cos she was so close to me..this resumed till ma 12th std exams..no no, even durin ma entrance coaching, she used 2 drop me at ma home..v were so close..v were not only frens..but sumthin more than that..and i cannot say that it was "love" as i was very young..could n make rapid decisions..but sumthin was between her and me..

and, it all lasted till ma ent.coaching..after that, v both got separated.. :((((((((((..she was really cute..but i don know, how she wud b lookin now..ha ha..

and ma fren lost it sum where!!! i mean that precious thing!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh..i could n bear it wen he said this.. :(((..it was like, sum thin very valuable was taken away from me..i felt bare handed..sum thin in me was missing..
and the thing was none other than a microtip pencil which s of d color "pink"..i loved d pencil more than her..i was havin that 4 nearly 4 yrs..and all of a sudden, it vanished sumwhr..:(((..im very sad..sum one help me 2 find ma pencil..m havin it still in memory of her..wenever i use that pencil, i do feel that, she s wid me(near me)..i miss that thing terribly..:((