The Break Up

Well, It's been ages since i posted something on this blogspot. 

A short prelude about this post.. Everyone would have fallen in love at some point of time in his/her life.. Let's get on to see how a guy laments after he breaks up with his girl .. :P

There was a time, when I had someone who always thought about me.. someone who cared for me like anything. someone who stood by me through all my hardships. Someone whom i loved to be with all the time..

But, that didn't last for long. She was affable, seraphic,graceful and a perfect 'Apsaras'. She was everything for me then. I was clueless on what went wrong. She started keeping off from me. This made me think that someone else has made his foray into her life. When asked about that, She was keeping mum. One fine day, She said that she was in a relationship with the other guy. Gosh! how hard her heart is?. How could she do that to me. How easy it was for her to get in and get out piercing my heart twice.well, Girls are used to doing things similar to this. 

And how could she say that she can't leave both of us?!? Perhaps, she would have thought that i would accept that.. Well, No.how can anyone who was head over heels in love with someone accept that?And we broke up..It was I who called it off. Nevertheless, She was interested in me. She has caused an unbearable pain in my heart. We guys are really magnanimous to forgive such girls despite the fact that they are real bitches. 

People say 'Time heals'.. I don't agree to it completely. As one gets busy,doing something of his interest, there wouldn't be any time to think of the past. There would be no room for 'Nostalgia' in One's life then.

Worth a Wait

Waiting for your eyes

to fall upon me

to look into my eyes and

interpret my mind

you will get to

know my grief

waiting to hear the words from your mouth

that would soothe my soul

that would turn me into a new man

that would clean up my mind from the broodings of

the past

waiting for your hands

to touch me

to take away my rues

and to melt me down into tears

A touch that would tidy up

my sinful heart

that would turn me into a saint

Listen my girl

you are worth the wait

hope it would change my fate!

We were asked to give feedback on our college life.The first word that came to my mind was "yuck"!

you would wonder why I'm so dejected to answer like that. Our college life was disgusting. Believe me! There are people whom we call as "friends" - whom we bank on all the time -whom we trust more than anyone. But we dont realise that they are those who get their things done by us - who come to us only when they need anything. Deceitful and cunning people!

This doesn't mean that i don't have any friends.I too have a few good friends.There are few creatures who pretend to be friends with everyone in a group say for instance a class.Their intention is to "socialize" and nothing else. They feign to be good to all and that seems so artificial. Pure ostentation! I despise this attitude very much..

What's the reason behind my moan? I should be specific at this point.It's someone who was my best pal during college days and now we're not even in touch. There were ample changes in "X" whose acts were unreal all of a sudden. X started behaving oddly, trying to socialize with almost everyone in the class.It seemed extremely weird for me.

The saddest thing i have ever done is that i wrote a poem for this X in the same old blog page.Ofcourse it's a matter of regret now!I hate this creature now. I have even decided not to

consider this X as a human being anymore..Now, you would understand why i used the word "creature" for reference while starting off.

Solitude

hey tree?

how can you

  stand on your own

   sans anyone!

    how lucky are you!

     to be alone 

    isolated from so called

      "the others"

   you might have had

   quite a few birds as

    your pals but do they still

         remain in your so called "mateship"?

 

    when you were rich

         with green leaves and fruits

             they all were banking upon you.

            But now, do you have anyone

        to care for you now?

      I guess NO!

          have you ever thought

           that they all would fly away

               leaving you alone one day?

            But,that's what happens!

        Never trust anyone

         people feign as friends

          they will care and they 

            won't be there when you 

          need them.

               never get attached to

                anyone.It wont last for certain

         live on your own

        Be independent

           and confident

            Being alone is 

            really a gift to

                do things on our own

                we can spend ample time 

                on things that we are 

                 interested in without 

                  the tamper of others.

                Introspection can be

                 made giving time to think

                  about our self offering

                  strength and determination

                      and 

                a better personality

                                                                         before cremation!                                                         

                                                            

Doleful Moments

well why do we listen to songs those evoke pain in our heart while we are depressed?

It's quite natural. It's like recalling the past and trowing what went wrong.

Break ups are quite common nowadays. They dont pertain only for  lovers.even, close friends can break apart.But, both hold the same kind of aftermaths.Human beings are blessed with a special power of getting over such heart breaking things with time. But, I still wonder whether i can ameliorate after sometime.

It keeps haunting me.Im feeling nostalgic and sad,grieving about the past.Im hurt.I don't think i can ever get whole bunch of care and affection from anyone anymore.It's like something has been taken from deep inside of me leaving me alone and desolate.I should not have got closer to a friend that i started expecting things which led me to face a sequel of dashing hopes.I couldn't stop thinking about the past. Atleast cherishing those wonderful memories can help me get better.I can't forget anything and those memories keep obsessing, making me sink in despair.

I used to download helluva sad songs hoping that they would help me sometime.And now it's the time to listen to such tracks.I normally dont focus on the lyrics much while listening to songs.Instead, used to concentrate deeply on the beats and the background.But, now im choosing songs with good lyrics to listen.And now it's the phase of rueful songs which have drawn my interest.Im listening to some selected songs again and again more than ten times a day.

very meaningful lyrics in a song makes me listen to it again and again!

"Flames to dust

  why do all good things 

 come to an end?"

I still wonder why do all  good things  end? I felt glad when i got something precious and now it has ended taking back my smile and glee. The most painful thing to do is to bid adieu to someone very close, someone you care for, someone like your sibling.Why did it happen to me?I didnt have strength in my  soul to say goodbye. The most distressing and hardest thing is to say goodbye to loved ones.Why i ve been put in sucha situation? well, its very tough for me not to think about the old memories which made me happy.I'm trying hard to forget everything, but i couldn't.Trying to keep myself occupied with something im interested in. Despite that, i couldn't stop thinking of the past.Even, tears are taking revenge on me.

This shouldn't happen to anyone.I started listening to "goodbye" songs and they make me feel better.hope, i ll get over it soon.

DOLOR

I was on seventh heaven

when you made an entry

into my life

It all started with a song

thanks to Madge 

who played a part in

bringing us near

I still cherish those

wonderful moments

We shared together

can't forget anything

I was really glad

after a very long time

It was you who brought 

smile on my face

but it all lasted for

quite a few days

 I wondered how you

disproved my jinx

I thought how lucky i am

to get you

but, everything vanished

in a jiffy

It always happens to me

whenever i get close

to someone

it never lasts long

Im always left behind

alone and abandoned

is this a boon for me 

given by the almighty?

It's the most painful thing

one can ever talk about

It's the most pathetic thing 

one can ever do

It's the most distressing thing

one can ever experience

How easy it was

for you to say 

that disheartening word

"goodbye"

It looks simple but has

a very complex meaning 

in it

My words seemed artificial

for you and 

you always suspected me

and acted quite rude

you hurt me ultimately

despite these

my love for you

has not dwindled even

a bit.

I never thought

you can be like this!

I never thought 

you will leave me alone

pushing me into the

world of grief, distress and despair

Thanks for being with me

sticking by me , guiding me

through the right path

i will never forget you

you will accomplish 

whatever you tend to

my prayers and good wishes

will always remain with you

forever and ever

None can ever get close to me

None can replace you

in my heart

None can take me back

from the domain of depression

All i want to say is

I miss you terribly

take care and be safe

stay happy with a

smile on your face!

Long distance relationship - unimaginable!

I never meant to hurt you

just spoke my heart open

was that wrong or

was that right?

was that too worse to hurt you?

am i cynic or is it you?

is being open too much for you?

i never knew!

did i spite you?

im sorry for being blunt

and forthright.

but when u think deep

you will find it right

whatever i said and

whatever i did

when i was down

you were there with me

but does it mean that

you are my world?

you are my dearest friend

and always will be

but nothing more

and no second thought

all that matters is

"distance"

and indeed we never met!

i dont believe in 

long distance relationship

and thats the reason

for me keeping off from you

you will have a great life

if you find someone there

im sure you will get a 

guy better than me in all ways

may your life flourish

and your mind cherish

let all your dreams come true 

with my prayers and hugs!